still a LIMITED citizen of this country.

i just had my ics session with zen this morning and in our last session, he had helped me see if my citizenship was confirmed yet. they said they were sending me the card and proper paperwork confirming my citizenship. so any of you bastards who had their hopes up to get me deported- i TOLD you i was a dual citizen and i've been in this damn country since i was a baby.. so you guys can suck it. i had been asking about getting a passport because i wanna take a trip to mexico for my 40th birthday and the travel pca who went with me to boston recommended that i get a passport because she said that mexico may let me in the country but this stupid country may not let me come back. i also have been wanting to take trips to canada and i assume you need a passport. then i asked zen about helping me get my driver's license again and he asked me when the last time i took my permit test was and when i took my behind-the-wheel lessons. i showed him my driver's permit and it expires next year in the middle of the year, zen looked at the permit because i'm not sure he assumed i was lying about it and taking lessons because i'm pretty sure his eyebrows raised while he was looking at it at first kinda like he was surprised (either that or he has bad eyes and was trying to focus?), it's kinda frustrating when people assume you're an idiot because you're disabled. i've went to a few colleges (while passing a few entry exams) and i've passed tests in order to get my damn driver's permit along with other tests to prove i don't have anything wrong with me (neuropsychological tests). it's easier for people to just assume i'm a disabled idiot because they assume it's easier if they can just do everything for me.. they don't even consider IF i was licensed to do it MYSELF, they wouldn't even have to fuckin worry about driving me or inconveniencing them for rides- which REALLY makes THEM the idiots in this situation. i get punished MY WHOLE LIFE for ONE bad mistake and i'm never able to do anything independently again. i get screwed over for NOT drinking and driving but the DRIVER who WAS drunk AND driving HAS his driver's license and has been able to drive for probably at least 20 years. THIS STATE SUCKS. he's a new yorker where they recognize shit happens and people make mistakes- they shouldn't be screwed their whole lives- UNLIKE MINNESOTA. oh look! ANOTHER reason why i don't like living in THIS state! best for disabilities MY ASS. the ONLY thing they're good for is taking away permission to do things independently from the vulnerable people who don't have advocacy and NEVER giving them back so they can appear disabled, so they can get their sad excuse of rehabilitation center's dicks stroked. people act like they're "protecting" me.. protecting me from WHAT?! LIVING A CONSTRUCTIVE LIFE WHERE I'M ACTUALLY ABLE TO REALLY LIVE A CONSTRUCTIVE LIFE?! i think so. no- i KNOW so. NEXT TIME YOU'VE BEEN PERSONALLY INJURED SO THAT YOU'RE CONSIDERED "DISABLED"- YOU CAN FUCKIN TALK. UNTIL THEN- YOU'RE A MORON TALKING OUTTA YOUR ASS. i should've drank beer with tim the night of the accident.. even though i HATE the taste and smell of that shit. maybe i wouldn't be limited on what i CAN do for myself if i drank that shit the night of the accident. NOW i'm left to piece my life together without any REAL advocacy who doesn't just advocate and pay attention to me at their convenience- and ONLY their convenience. and to the idiots trying to get me to speak to them on snapchat since i won't do it on facebook- you're just fuckin wasting your time. it's like you think i'm as stupid as you. GONNA HAVE TO TRY SOMETHING ELSE ASSHOLES. HOW ABOUT PROVING YOU'RE NOT AN IGNORANT RACIST DICK?! AND GROWING A SACK AND THINKING OF A WAY TO REALLY PROVE YOU'RE EVEN WORTH COMMUNICATING WITH? I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME. go screw yourselves. i don't have time for you dicks.. especially NOT since you assume i'm stupid enough to act like you're even worth communicating with.